Thursday, September 11, 2008
A check in
First I'd just like to take a moment to recognize the anniversary of 9/11. To pay tribute to all those who lost their lives, lost loved ones or lost some part of themselves, be it physically or emotionally, as a result of that day.
And then I just wanted to check in.....nothing particularly noteworthy has been happening on my end so I've not been here much. I had T last weekend and we talked about the dream I'd had. T was 100% in agreement with my interpretation of it. She always takes it one step further and she asked me how the meaning of the dream made me feel. ?? I dunno..... I don't really feel one way or the other about it. I guess it's just a reminder to keep striving to let my emotions out. She and I talked alot about my stress over everything that needs to get done in life and at work. She reminded me that my high anxiety is just the way I react; it's the reaction I "choose". I could choose to recognize that there is an impossible amount to get done and just know that I am but one person. I will do what I can and I can't let the rest of it eat away at me because it does nothing productive. In fact it's absolutely unproductive because giving my energy to stressing over what is not done only drains my energy away from what I am doing. So I'm working on trying to focus on the task at hand instead of stressing about everything at once. As I sit here in my office looking at stacks and piles, piles and stacks.....well, it's not the easiest to put it out of mind. In fact, I think I will go organize my desk so that it doesn't look so overwhelming!!!