Thursday, October 2, 2008
Quick note about a dream
I'm adding this mostly so I can remember to mention it to T. I've been able to sleep so much this week. It's a beautiful thing. It also leads to more dreaming. I don't remember much of my dreams. I do recall having one dream that I was pregnant. And another dream all about a penguin! I had another the other night and I was trying to purchase something. First I gave the clerk a $50 gift card that I had for the store and she ran it through and then I paid cash for the same $10 item. I wanted the $10 put back on the gift card and I was flipping out that she couldn't do it. As I thought about this dream later in the morning (with my cup of coffee on the front porch overlooking the lake....*sigh*), I think this dream was signifying my "overpayment" from my abuse. I have paid and paid and paid again for the things that were done to me. And I can't get that back, ever. But I can walk away....stop fighting with the clerk about it! Know that it's over and done with and I can quit wasting my energy trying to recover that which is already "spent"; that measly $10. I still have "$40" left on the card. :o) ie: I still possess more than I have lost. It's okay to walk away. It's okay to leave it behind.